Conversation: "What Got You into This?"

(originally posted at my Misterdoe’s Gallery group at Yahoo back in 1999)

Me: I’ve often wondered how we all got into this tobegin with. In my case it’s been a 20-year dream tofind something like an invisible girls website.

When I was 12 or 13 my best friend, who was a girl oneyear older than me, went south for the summer. I didn’t know how I was going to survive (she was my bestfriend, but I was crazy about her just the same). I did it by pretending that she wasn’t gone at all, she had only become invisible, and I was the only one who could see her. Obviously, the idea stuck.

How about you guys? What got you into this?

Paul Cwick: “What got me into this?” Oooh, what a loaded question! I could write a book on that, but I’ll try to keep it brief.

When I was a kid, I used to enjoy watching all the “Invisible Man” movies. For some reason, I found them much more fascinating than all the other Horror/Thriller movies made around the same time. I didn’t realize it then, but later on I realized that what I got off on was the ‘power’ aspect; to this day, that is still the aspect about the fantasy that I find most compelling.

Then
one day, I saw the 1941 “Invisible Woman” and it totally blew me away. Not only because it featured a female character, but it was the first “Invisible” movie I’d seen with a sympathetic title character, that wasn’t a thriller and left a hint at the end that she had retained her invisibility powers (unlike all the other movies where the character either dies or takes a reagent, ending the invisibility.)

But it also left me with the STRANGEST feelings afterward; in the back of my kid mind, I kept thinking, “It’s not fair that a GIRL should get to be invisible!” This, despite the fact that there were DOZENS of movies already made with a male protagonist. I felt a bit uncomfortable and yes, threatened, by the idea of a female having such a unique power, and yet at the same time, I was fascinated by it. This ‘uneasiness’
(for lack of a better word) remained in my mind for years afterward, and I could never quite resolve it
until…

Until puberty hit, and then it was a whole new ballgame. Then this movie and other unusual fantasies began
to occur and recur to me, usually involving women who had become empowered by some supernatural or
preternatural means or other. Of all of these fantasies however, the “Invisible Woman” fantasy has proven to be the most potent and long-lasting for me. I also was very shy (still am, in fact) & unpopular in junior
high & high school, afraid to approach real-life GUHRLZ, so I began to rely more & more on my fantasies
just to keep my sanity. Needless to say, it wasn’t long before I began to fantasize about being seduced
by an invisible girl who was absolutely madly in love with me, and before long, all sorts of variations
of THAT theme began to occur to me as well.

In 1983, the new “Invisible Woman” TV-movie premiered, and I enjoyed it, even though I was disappointed
that it wasn’t picked up as a series. I also wished that it had a bit more of an ‘edge’ to it (anyone who has read my stories knows what I’m talking about!) than it did. But I liked it nonetheless and vid-taped it for repeated viewings.

Keep in mind that for all this time, I was CONVINCED that I was the only one on the face of the earth to fantasize about invisible women. I NEVER mentioned the subject to ANYONE, except for a couple of female friends of mine, who, when I told them, looked at me like I had lobsters crawling out of my ears!

Then about six months ago, I discovered the “Invisible Girl Webring” and through that, the Femmes Invisible web site. I was absolutely stunned beyond powers of description to discover that there were websites (with pictures, no less!) devoted the very same fantasy that I’d enjoyed for over 20 years, and that I apparently WASN’T the only one to fantasize about invisible women!

Needless to say, I logged in regularly after that, occasionally put in my two-cents’ worth here & there and
gradually watched this little cult fandom grow into the multi-club, multi-website phenomenon that it has become. And the rest, as they say, is history.

Scidram:I am a fan of many transformations of the female form (shrinking, growing, invisibility, age regression, animal transformations, etc.) There’s a certain fascination in first the helplessness one must go through when something has altered the body, and then the struggle one goes through to either regain themselves or live with the transformation.

Regarding invisibility, I was 12 when the TV-movie “The Invisible Woman” premiered, and certain scenes have stuck in my head ever since (Sandy stripping down when first becoming invisible, putting on pantyhose so her legs could be seen, and lifting up her shirt to show her uncle she was still invisible). Seeing her with the invisibility was attractive, and I was going through puberty, so it had an effect.

My interest was renewed when I learned I was not alone in my fascinations. All the artwork and stories on the web are great, and definitely erotic. And as for the new Levi’s ad, it is definitely one of the sexiest ads on TV.

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